May 2-9, 2011... the worst days of my life... I never thought of it to happen. My most treasured pets were gone and worst, I was not able to do anything because of what? Financial crisis. Why do we have to suffer because of this? Why do the people and the things that I love get to suffer more? I just hate it.
May 2, 2011 - Cookie
We had our meeting at school, and I spent most of the day out, and when I arrived home, she was gasping for life, she was breathing hardly and paralyzed. She can't move her body, it was so stiff and she can't even blink her eyes, it was wide open and I can feel her pain while she was trying her best to scream and ask for help. Earlier that time, around 4 am, my mom woke me up because her mouth was bleeding, but then we ignored it assuming maybe its just her tooth or something. We didn't thought that it was serious that lead her to that situation. I was so frustrated that time, and all I could do is to cry. It's really hard seeing her like that because she was like our baby. She used to sleep beside me and even under my shirt when she feels cold. She's so malambing and very cute. I'm going to miss her so much.
May 6, 2011 - Dax aka GD
4 days after Cookie's death, Dax followed. We were really curious about what's happening to them. Dax was bleeding, seriously. And we didn't know what to do. We were asking our mother to take him to the vet but she was hesitant since we were in crisis. Again, i was frustrated and i feel so useless. I was not yet fully recovered with Cookies loss, and then now? Dax. I have seen him slowly becoming weak while the blood continuously coming out of his mouth. The next morning, I was observing him walking around the house, I was sitting on the floor when he fell on my leg because he was too weak. Right then he started to vomit then I took him outside. I was carrying him and he was crying that made my heart crush. My mother decided to take him to the vet, but when they got their, it was too late. Dax left us. It was really devastating. 2 pups in a week? how worst could that be? The snow-like fur Dax. I'm gonna miss him as well.
Ahhhh! So Kyeoptda!! As in super cute! I got a little jelly-jelly because of Leeteuk.. and they are so sweet on that video T_T.. but its ok.. Leeteuk-oppa! Jjang!
No man really knows
A word is so important
Why don’t you understand my heart?
Fool you never fell in love
Sistar's sub group Sistar19 released their new single with MV called Ma Boy. They are just talented, right? I so love Bora, so pretty and the dance? just amazingly kewl!
Personally, i like the song.. it talks about a boy, who shows hints but never uses his words to tell what he feels that makes the girl confused and unsure. He gives warm looks but also looking at other woman, that's mean! And the girl... stupidly waiting for him to say "i love you". These are just so familiar. LOL.
I love them dance moves too, cute and sexy. Hyorin and Bora's voices compliment each other so well.
Download the song HERE!
Am I really that busy that I wasn't able to notice that 2NE1 released a new music video? Gosh. Thanks to Cling-Cling for the link.
When I heard the song, I felt like, wow. This song matches my current mood these past few days. I'm lonely, Cholo, Dax and Cookie are gone. I don't what happened. It JUST happened. I feel so sad that I didn't want to go home anymore. I think about them a lot, even when I'm working, I can't think straight and I'm always on tears.
But this is life, I keep reading The Edges, Word 4 the Day just to give me a little courage and perseverance to pursue and move on with my life. I know Cholo, Dax and Cookie will be watching me from up there.
OJT matters...
I've been very busy with our OJT thing. but it's our last week now. And I'm so happy with the result on the CSS and layout. :D I hope we will be able to satisfy our supervisor and coordinator.
I don't wanna talk more about it.. :D
the MV...
KEWL!! 2NE1 is just AW AW AWESOME!! I love them! I'm so excited for their upcoming concert here in the Philippines this June 4, though I'm not watching.
Download their new song here...
I think I should end this post now. Too much talking. LOL.